Surgery yesterday was fine! Great even. I am here at work this morning and I can't even tell that I had anything done yesterday! Other than the huge bruise from the I.V. and the sore throat from the breathing tube...
So yesterday I got a Hysteroscopy, a Polypectomy, and a D&C. A lot of big words for basically saying they dilated my cervix, stuck a camera up there and removed the two polyps they found Tuesday. The Doc didn't see anything else out of the ordinary, gave my a quick scrape to get some fresh blood in there and I was out of surgery in about 30 minutes! Another 30 in recovery and I was on my way home.
I haven't had much bleeding, just some spotting really and that's about stopped now too. I haven't even had to take a pain pill, although, believe me I had them filled - just in case ;)
So as far as all the bad news goes, I hope this was it! I am still on the schedule for September and my baseline appointment to see if we can continue is next Thursday. So until then we just wait a little more.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
VERY NERVOUS
Well yesterday I had an appointment for some pre-IVF stuff and it just seemed like everything that could go wrong did. To start with I had fasting labs , so nothing to eat or drink, which wasn't bad, except they didn't get around to doing my labs until about 10:30 and I had a chick-fil-a biscuit in my bag just begging me to eat it!!! That was just a tease!
8am I had my annual pap - by 11 I already had bad news from that. Some kind of extreme overgrowth of bacteria that should be there, just not in those numbers, so I've got these yucky vaginal suppositories to get that under control.
9am I had my sono HSG - It didn't hurt like I expected it too, but I did cramp up a little. They took a bunch of cultures and other stuff then slipped the catheter in (which is what hurt so bad on the first two HSGs) Everything was going so smooth and then BAM! I HAVE POLYPS! At least two large ones and possibly several more... so I'm going to have to have surgery before anything else. Possibly even this week...
If that wasn't enough already, my endo biopsy was immediately following and that HURT LIKE HELL!!! I am not going to lie about that one bit. a little pinch my a$$! First of all my cervix takes a turn to the right then another turn downwards before reaching my uterus. The Dr. just couldn't get the large stiff catheter to make those turns so after several minutes they had to give me a shot of Lidocaine in my cervix and then dilate it. Okay. by this point I'm already in tears because of the pain and stress and bad news I just got about surgery....yadda yadda yadda... and THEN she started to take the sample. I have NEVER in my life had pain that intense. I literally thought I was going to throw up it hurt so bad! I bawled like a baby. Luckily the pain was very short lived and after it was all over and I gathered my composure I was back in the waiting room in less than ten minutes.
Waiting room for what? Why the EKG of course. No pain here, but guess what? The machine didn't want to work, and when it did? She wanted to run a couple more tests because they looked 'out of the ordinary'. Okay I've been poked and prodded, stressed out, dilated, told I would be having surgery - maybe this week- and you wonder why my EKG is abnormal?!? all I can do is shake my head.
Anyhow after all of that torture I had my labs done and ate my biscuit. Then we went to Med teaching for an hour, to the pharmacy for half a hour got a bite to eat and got home around 3:30. Oh yeah, we left the house about 6:30 this morning, so yes I am very exhausted, and it's been a rather unnerving day for me from the time I got out of bed, but now, I'm going to put it all in the Lords hands and I know he will deliver me through all of this. I DO have faith in that. A lot of pain?
UPDATE
I just got off the phone and I am scheduled for surgery tomorrow at 1pm. I have to be there between 8 and 9 to do pre-ops and paperwork. The surgery itself should only be about 45 minutes and then recovery time. Please pray for me that I will be fine through this and there will be no other major stumbling blocks for me.
8am I had my annual pap - by 11 I already had bad news from that. Some kind of extreme overgrowth of bacteria that should be there, just not in those numbers, so I've got these yucky vaginal suppositories to get that under control.
9am I had my sono HSG - It didn't hurt like I expected it too, but I did cramp up a little. They took a bunch of cultures and other stuff then slipped the catheter in (which is what hurt so bad on the first two HSGs) Everything was going so smooth and then BAM! I HAVE POLYPS! At least two large ones and possibly several more... so I'm going to have to have surgery before anything else. Possibly even this week...
If that wasn't enough already, my endo biopsy was immediately following and that HURT LIKE HELL!!! I am not going to lie about that one bit. a little pinch my a$$! First of all my cervix takes a turn to the right then another turn downwards before reaching my uterus. The Dr. just couldn't get the large stiff catheter to make those turns so after several minutes they had to give me a shot of Lidocaine in my cervix and then dilate it. Okay. by this point I'm already in tears because of the pain and stress and bad news I just got about surgery....yadda yadda yadda... and THEN she started to take the sample. I have NEVER in my life had pain that intense. I literally thought I was going to throw up it hurt so bad! I bawled like a baby. Luckily the pain was very short lived and after it was all over and I gathered my composure I was back in the waiting room in less than ten minutes.
Waiting room for what? Why the EKG of course. No pain here, but guess what? The machine didn't want to work, and when it did? She wanted to run a couple more tests because they looked 'out of the ordinary'. Okay I've been poked and prodded, stressed out, dilated, told I would be having surgery - maybe this week- and you wonder why my EKG is abnormal?!? all I can do is shake my head.
Anyhow after all of that torture I had my labs done and ate my biscuit. Then we went to Med teaching for an hour, to the pharmacy for half a hour got a bite to eat and got home around 3:30. Oh yeah, we left the house about 6:30 this morning, so yes I am very exhausted, and it's been a rather unnerving day for me from the time I got out of bed, but now, I'm going to put it all in the Lords hands and I know he will deliver me through all of this. I DO have faith in that. A lot of pain?
UPDATE
I just got off the phone and I am scheduled for surgery tomorrow at 1pm. I have to be there between 8 and 9 to do pre-ops and paperwork. The surgery itself should only be about 45 minutes and then recovery time. Please pray for me that I will be fine through this and there will be no other major stumbling blocks for me.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
To Everything There is a Season
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
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The last few weeks have been ridiculously stressful on both DH and I. I'm not sure if I'm coming or going most of the time now. When I'm not laughing, I'm crying. We've been toying with the idea of a September IVF and even though we are still going through all the motions we're still not sure we're going to go through with it. There are still so many unanswered questions. There is one thing for sure though, infertility is definitely a time for every season...
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
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The last few weeks have been ridiculously stressful on both DH and I. I'm not sure if I'm coming or going most of the time now. When I'm not laughing, I'm crying. We've been toying with the idea of a September IVF and even though we are still going through all the motions we're still not sure we're going to go through with it. There are still so many unanswered questions. There is one thing for sure though, infertility is definitely a time for every season...
Friday, July 25, 2008
Do or Die
So it's been done. In an hour or so I should get a call from Kelly, or Robin, or somebody else from the New Hope Center. As I watched that dark wet blood fill the vial this morning I couldn't help but feel just a little nostalgic about the whole thing. Has it really been five years? Yes, I suppose it has. So this is it for us? No, but it feels like it might as well be. We still hope to pursue IVF this fall if this test comes back negative - and I'm pretty sure that it will. All of the symptoms I've had this 2ww are gone. Even the boob pain. That left me yesterday, and honestly I believe the prometrium suppositories are the ONLY thing that is keeping AF at bay. I've have no cramping, no headaches, nothing, which is normal for my pre-AF. I can just hope that she will be a light one and be over with soon enough. I just hope that I can accept the results of my test with a happy heart, although I'm sure I'll be sad, knowing that God will never give us what we can't handle..
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Why you can call me a dope...
After spending hours on 2ww.com and poas.com I am now totally convinced that:
1. I'm a dope for even getting worked up about a possible line that I can barely see only in the right light at a certain distance....
2. I'm a dope for even buying the dollar tree tests and then using only them!
3. I'm a dope for not using a better test - like the e.p.t. that I had in the house!
4. I'm a dope because I'm am totally convinced the lines are evap lines - due to cheap tests!(despite the fact that the line showed up in two minutes and the box says nothing over ten!!!)BUT I'm still holding out for a BFP this cycle.
5. I'm a dope because I did all this, knowing about the evap problem, most likely because I'm scared to death that when I do test with a better test it is going to be a bfn...
1. I'm a dope for even getting worked up about a possible line that I can barely see only in the right light at a certain distance....
2. I'm a dope for even buying the dollar tree tests and then using only them!
3. I'm a dope for not using a better test - like the e.p.t. that I had in the house!
4. I'm a dope because I'm am totally convinced the lines are evap lines - due to cheap tests!(despite the fact that the line showed up in two minutes and the box says nothing over ten!!!)BUT I'm still holding out for a BFP this cycle.
5. I'm a dope because I did all this, knowing about the evap problem, most likely because I'm scared to death that when I do test with a better test it is going to be a bfn...
Monday, July 21, 2008
I hate to wait
So today is 9dpo, I've wasted two tests already (way too early) and now I feel completely fine! I was cramping a little a few days ago, and thought it to be a good sign, especially since I never cramp. Now it's like any other normal day in the 2ww. The soreness on the BB's comes and goes and I'm not nauseous anymore when I think of food. I'm always hungry, but hey - that's no different either! :) I'm supposed to have blood work done Wednesday, but I think I'm going to hold off until Friday. I can wait that long - right?????
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