WOW!

So okay - I had a total breakdown in the RE's office today - I MEAN TOTAL! I was just so overwhelmed I couldn't talk, I couldn't breath, all I could do was just cry. So the multitude of follicles that have been brewing in my now sore and gigantic ovaries have increased again. From the last scan, there were seven potential follicles that could come up and mature, and today there were ten. I was so sure that they were going to cancel this cycle. I mean I was already walking out the door knowing that when we got that call the cycle would be a bust! But you know God works in mysterious ways and while we were on the way home the phone rang. It was Lynn at Dr. Robins. I wasn't quite sure I was hearing her right, because she does have a hard accent, but did she just say take the trigger tonight?!? WHAT? I have ten potential follies and they want me to trigger tonight! I really don't know what to think. I had one follie that was 16mm, and two that were 15mm. The others were a bit smaller, but plenty large to be a possibility. So following the Drs. orders DH will get to stick that big old needle right in my ass tonight. Yeah he's looking forward to that! Then it's going to be like a porn house around here for the next few days. I'm due for a blood test on the 23rd, but we all know I won't be able to wait that long! ;)


Everybody cross your toes and fingers and say a little prayer!

oh-no

What are they thinking? Can a 13mm follie really grow enough to ovulate overnight? Ugh! This whole process is probably the most frustrating thing I have ever been through! Honestly, during my appointment yesterday I am told by the tech, "Your good to go, they only grow 2mm a day and they won't trigger until the follie is 18-20mm." THEN right afterwards the Dr. says I'm too close (at 13mm) and wants me back today!!! WHAT! Well there was virtually no way that I was going to be able to make the appointment today and I squabbled myself into an appointment tomorrow but that definitely did not make the Dr. very happy. They are very concerned that I will ovulate on my own all of the eggs (would that be so bad?) or that I will Hyperstim which in turn will cancel this cycle. I don't know how long I'm going to be able to just leave work at the drop of a hat before all the questions and rumors start floating around. Should I tell my boss what's going on? I just don't know what to do about that!

okay my mistake - BIG MISTAKE!

EEEEKKKKKKK!!!!!! So the numbers I posted from the last scan were reasonable right??? Only that I find out on Friday's appointment that I totally misunderstood the tech when she was counting follies! When I went back for my follie scan on Friday I found out I have 43 follies! Yes you read that right, forty three!!! 25 on my right and 18 on my left... AND they upped my dose to 100iu of Follistim!!! One of the Doctors came out to talk to me after the scan and said "Honey that's a lot of eggs" I think they are trying to prepare me for bad news. I.E. they may cancel this cycle. I go back this afternoon for another check and am sure I'll find out more about what they want to do now. They are hoping a few will jump out with this higher dose and take the lead so we won't have to worry about all the little ones. As of Friday they were all over the place ranging from 3-11mm. I think the higher dose of Follistim is doing something though. I am very aware of my left ovary and all the twinges and pains that I don't usually feel. Left ovary is good though, being my right tube is questionable! Wish me luck this afternoon!

THE FIRST SHOT

I'm still not sure what all the hype was about. While I was steady shaking from the nerves, I never felt the needle enter the skin.

Today was CD3 of my first injectable cycle and just now I gave myself the first shot. Things have been rather overwhelming in the last few days leading up to now. I wasn't sure how my DH was going to respond...I wasn't sure how I was going to respond. The usual tense two hour ride to VA beach was actually rather refreshing today with most of the time used to discuss our road ahead. While there were still a few tears shed, most of them I believe were happy tears, for I think we had a breakthrough today. If this injectable cycle doesn't do the trick, then there is hope for us to proceed with an IVF treatment. I am overly excited about just the thought, and like I said before, extremely overwhelmed.

As for the appointment itself, only a few technical things. Endometrium measured 8mm, Right ovary had 15 follicles ranging from 4-10mm and the Left ovary had 8 follicles ranging from 4-8mm. The next appointment is scheduled for Friday, July 4th.

blah...

okay - so as pretty as a chart might be, looks aren't everything! Of course AF had to show up early and ruin yet again another beautiful looking chart! However on the positive side, I've got my appointment set for tomorrow and if all looks well I'll start the injectables! I've got to say, I'm a little scared - NO! I'm a lot scared. I just don't know if I can stick that big 'ol needle in my belly everyday... But for Baby... Bring on the bruises!

Pray for us this week, that we may get the go ahead to start these treatments, that we will have safe travel to and from the RE's office and that I stim nicely and everything goes well for the trigger and ovulation and possible pregnancy.

Triphasic???

Look at that thing! She's a beauty right!

This month has been one of the most stressful months on the TTC front. We both know this is our last chance of conceiving the 'Natural Way' before moving on to bigger and better medications. It's a little heartbreaking to think of it that way... However natural it may have been, we still tried things a little different this month, using pre-seed and Instead cups. I've heard it worked wonders for others so I thought what the heck! It's just another shenanigan I've added to the list of gimmicks and tricks. We also took a 'relaxing' mini vacation to the beach (right when I was supposed to O!!!)... I say relaxing but I don't think I did that at all! It was good to get away, but relaxing isn't the word I would use....

However doubtful I may be, this morning when I woke up I couldn't help but be a little excited to see that high temp. Even though I know I didn't sleep well and I know deep down that's probably why it jumped. This weekend should tell the tale. Say a prayer that the line turns green and stays that way!

I've put it off again

yeap... I did it again. I've put the injectables off one more time. It's not because I wanted too, I promise you that! This time? First for vacation, now for scheduling issues... However there are still a lot of unanswered questions that need to be resolved before we take this any farther. I've got the meds, know what to do, I just need to find time in my schedule (and DH's) to take me three times a week to VA. Beach until I ovulate. ugh. I really do hate that ride.

June really wasn't a good month for us anyhow. That's what I keep telling myself.