The Infertile Patient's Prayer and Infertility

Lord, Give me Strength...
To keep my cool when another period starts.
To keep my chin up when a co-worker announces her pregnancy.
To have a good relationship with my friend in spite of her ability to conceive easily and not be jealous of her.
To endure my sister-in-law's comments about toilet training.
To keep from crying when I see children begging on the roads.
To forgive my doctor when he keeps me waiting for two hours for a consultation - and then can't remember my name.
To make the right decision about treatment.
To maintain a good relationship with my husband in spite of all this.
" God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can change, and the wisdom to know the difference."

Infertility is...
Watching your husband playing with your friend's baby and wishing you could give him one of his own.
Telling nurses to please take blood from your right arm because the veins in your left arm are all gone because of all the IVs you've had.
Avoiding people you haven't seen for a long time because you don't want to hear the question, "Do you have any kids yet?".
Feeling very left out when your friends start comparing their pregnancy or childbirth experiences.
Feeling like the whole town is pregnant except for you.
Getting tired of people always expecting you to do things because "you don't have any kids to worry about".
Waking up in the middle of the night and wishing you could hear your baby crying.
Wishing you could give your parents grandchildren.
Wanting to fall apart if one other person says, "Why don't you adopt?" Easy, right?
Sometimes avoiding friends who are pregnant or with newborns because you just can't handle the situation at that moment.
Crying just because.

whew, what a few days

Well thank Heavens that the depression has worn off from the medication. The other side effects however can be right painful! I've learned quickly that you DO NOT eat only carbs for a meal!!! That is a huge NO! NO! On another note, in just a week, I've lost about five pounds! I don't know if it's me cutting the carbs, my curbed appetite, or staying in the john all the time... I think it's probably a bit of all three.

Metformin Blues

Well, last weeks visit to Virginia Beach puts a new spin on a lot of different things. First of all, after doubting the ultrasound results and arguing with the nurse on whether or not I had ovulated this cycle, all the bloodwork showed -No- I did not ovulate this cycle, which means that the cyst was left over from the previous cycle, and I am not pregnant. They called the very next day and said they wanted to redo the ultrasound. I never called them back. I tried to tell them while I was there, that I hadn't ovulated but they didn't listen to me, and there is no way I can keep taking off all this time on such short notice. Either way, they went ahead and prescribed to me the metformin, which is definetly not my friend! The first day or so wasn't so bad, but now I'm feeling worse and worse. Besides the stomach cramps, the really bad headaches, all the time spent in the bathroom, and the feeling that eating is just wrong...the really bad thing is it makes me feel pretty depressed. Yesterday was a really bad day, and today isn't much better. I feel like I could cry at the drop of a hat. I hope that it's the medicine working to fix my hormones, but I can't help but wonder is it worth all this trouble, or is this more wasted time and money?